And the cell phone keeps ringing...
07/23/2003 06:09 p.m.
So, another night, another talk, another moment that I almost wish I was with you. I must admit, that I'm afraid of you, even now, with as much distance as we have between us. I'm more scared of you then ever....because it's now that we're not suppose to have these conversations, and it's now that you're not suppose to tell me that you miss me, and it's now, more than ever that I'm not suppose to miss you. So what's next? Will we ever be free from this cycle and connection, that even if we really did want to rid ourselves of it, we would? Egghh, I guess we'll find out when we hang out, or actually have "the talk". But the only problem is....we've discussed this, we decided not to indulge this fantasy, but we always come back here. And I always want to be here when I'm not. And I'll always wish for another day while saying to myself, "Oh God please not again." But you keep calling, and I pick up.

I miss you too.
I am currently Helpless
I am listening to Jewel "Grey Matter"