website
05/26/2003 02:58 p.m.
...is moving along nicely. finally have the splash finished. of course, that was the fairly easy part. image on it is fairly large, will take a while to load via dialup, if i get the site reviewed when i finish i'm bound to hear about that. but i don't care as long as it works for me, which is why i'd make a poor professional website designer.

suppose part of the reason is because it IS my PERSONAL site and i'm extremely ambivalent about letting random people in to see it anyways. i am careful about letting people i don't know see that much about me until i know them. random surfers don't bother me, they don't know me and chances are better than average they never will. random acquaintances are different, lol. they know enough to draw conclusions and make judgments.

had words with mel on sf last night. told her i was tired of having it shoved down my throat. i'm glad she's enthusiastic about it, but hopefully she'll back off a little now. there's more to my life than web sites...even if they're taking up a large chunk of time at the moment.

fear in me so deep
it gets the best of me
in the fear i fall
here it comes face to face with me
here i stand
hold back so no one can see
i feel these wounds

step down
..........step down
....................step DOWN

am i breaking down?
can i break away?
---downfall, trust company
I am currently Reflective
I am listening to downfall - trust company on endless repeat