familiar apology
05/18/2003 08:27 p.m.
I think it's been proven (proved?) that I am simply terrible at being a girlfriend and a best friend at the same time. Eric feels neglected. Koye feels neglected. And I feel tired. I don't mean to mess things up so badly. This whole situation would be about a gazillion times better if at least one of us had a car. But no. The only three eighteen year olds in the whole world it seems without driving capabilities found each other and enjoyed. So this is an apology to Koye. A very familiar apology. I feel like I've let him down so much. Before the boyfriends... it was like... everything was figured out with me and him. We had a system. A way of doing things. This summer is different cause I have to accomodate me and Eric's systems along with me and Koye's. Eric calls every morning at 11. We talk until he needs to get ready for work. At night Koye calls... this is where I should really be more diligent about calling him earlier. (*mental note*) He calls and we talk until Eric calls when he gets off work. Then usually there's a three-way call... which is mostly disastrous. And people feel left out. And I'm sorry. We'll fix this. I'll make it better, I swear.

So much is going on... but when I think about it... my life only really involves a number of people I could count on my fingers. And I do a really good job of pissing them off.

Sorry.
I am currently Bleh
I am listening to the TV is on... I think.