Something is always left unsaid
05/16/2003 07:50 p.m.
Last night I felt like walking, no reason, no ulterior motive that others were unaware of, I just got out of my car and started walking. It took me past all of the toads that would usually jump, but never did, and through these woods I've never seen, and then straight into your arms, or maybe just the imaginization of them. I felt so calm, so at peace, so complete, so warm...inside. And then I turned away and walked home alone. I went past every shriek or creak without ever looking back, I didn't jump when a cat rustled from the bushes, and I wasn't paranoid of the dark shawdows lurking between houses. And I was home, whole again.......
that was yesterday, and I thought I was better again, everything was changing back to being fine, normal, back to me, how I was before with that stupid girly smile. But now, I don't know, I just feel so lost from you. I'll never get over this, will I? I'll never get over you. And to think, that before I thought all I had to do was forget you. I still get lost in your eyes, and it seems that I can't live a day without you. I'm still lost in your vastness, in the pools of browns and pinks and sunless days when rain fell upon our kisses. There I said it, OUR.
I am currently Indifferent
I am listening to Michelle Branch "Goodbye To You"