i need a frigging keeper
05/16/2003 05:02 a.m.
yes, i am ticked off. locked myself out of the trailer. keys and i SO do not get along. i don't even know how i did it. don't even REMEMBER locking the freaking door...usually i only do when i'm home or going somewhere for a long time cuz i do stupid things like that. somebody save me from myself.

i'm pmsing, screwed up my back and feel like something the cat dragged in. on top of that, i have to replace the screen to the back door where i shredded it trying to get in. which didn't work. ended up calling parents, half hour drive for them at 10:30pm, to come pry the door open. and dad has to be up at 2am to leave for work. all because i put off getting a stupid inexpensive key because i haven't had money enough to spare lately for anything that wasn't a bill or food. which was my own fault for agreeing to chaperone sister's field trip...but i don't really regret that all that much. gah, i just wish i could get a brain transplant. i'm tired of forgetting.

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okay, day after. slightly improved. but, umm..yeah. whatever.

g=e*P made it to most creative top ten list a while back. that really did surprise me. was just a matter of good timing i guess, because really, it wasn't that good of a piece. sorta made me wince to see it there representing me when i knew it needed so much more work. the flow into the personality section is nonexistant. need to iron that out, think i have a more efficient way of looking at that aspect of it, but i need to incubate the idea a bit longer before it'll be workable.

reading rhodora fitzgerald this morning. she has a knack for calm, soothing, concise writings with easy to understand image/comparisons. i liked most of what i read, but not a lot to comment on them.

other things i liked, cymbre dolphay's aphrodite. definately pegged that particular goddess, i agreed with her entirely on her view expressed. also liked rommel cruz' the princess' knight, a lovely satire there. laughed so hard when i read the lines on the frogs...

there was one somebody titled run that i really identified with. but i lost the journal entry i wrote on it before i posted it. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. third or fourth time that happened lately, need to do something about puter. plus i lost a poem written about jake's accident because i didn't save it before my puter froze up. that's not going to be rewritten any time soon...it was hard enough to do it once.

am working on a new layout for my website, scribblings of insanity. using one of the pix from then and lyrics from linkin park. i don't usually go for human type pics beings as i have issues with technology. love my puter, but too oft supposed 'progress' comes at the expense of natural resources better left as is. usually prefer nature themed pix.

but anyways...this new layout is a bit morbid. there are some realities people kind of rather don't want to look at.
I am currently Angry
I am listening to puter making weird noises