things to make me go hmmmmmm
05/10/2003 06:01 a.m.
Well, in the course of our growing we have stopped SENSING. We tend to always use language even where its not needed. Besides, your problem is the fear of fear. There are definite ways of getting rid of this. We shall talk about this soon. To start with you ought to intend paradoxically.

somebody pegged me rather too well. i am very curious about what he meant by intending paradoxically.


was back in rommel cruz' library again today. one of his writings inspired me. whether that's for good or ill...time will tell. now that i wrote it and posted it, i begin to wonder if i came off sounding like a know-it-all. or worse, someone who doesn't know what they're talking about at all. sometimes i stretch my mind around topics and think they make sense, because they do to me but later find fatal flaws in my reasoning. this could be one of those times. if i did, i'm sure somebody will say so. urgh.

on a side note, ivz listened to my soundfile of split perspectives. she thinks i could be a folksinger. don't think my voice is that good. *wryly* actually, i hate the way i sound. but i like to sing anyways. only do it around work, mostly in the rooms with demented people. calms them down sometimes when they're ticked and wanting to try ripping my face off.

hubris gets in the way. i won't sing in public because i don't want to know if i suck, lol. cuz then i'd be judging myself instead of enjoying being able to do it. or i'd pick my performances to pieces critically. don't think i want it badly enough to go through the hassles involved. or maybe i'm lazy.
I am currently Jumbled
I am listening to nothing