a rizzo moment
05/09/2003 11:50 a.m.
*heavy sigh*

everything's going to be all right. my stomach will continue to shrink as long as i keep doing those crunches. i can go to school in the fall as planned. my life is exactly what i wanted it to be. there's not a damn reason i could go on maury's show.

and i know why. i know it's because last night for the first time in all this, i turned to God and made pleas to Him. i apologized and begged and it was praying like i haven't done in years. and maybe that's why it's taken so long. it was Him holding out to see if i'd come to Him. i'm so glad i finally did.

now i can go back to my normal thought processes.

want to know something completely crazy? there's almost a sadness. yes, it would have ruined a lot of things. my parents would have murdered me with bare hands. and i'd have to live with rumors and pointing and whispering. but it would have been nice for a time. there would have been moments i'd enjoy. but not yet. now isn't the time. everything has its time and now is not the time. but at least i know i'm not completely averse to the idea.

gosh, when did things become so complicated? i wish Eric would call.

but really people, be thankful. don't take your life for granted.

*yet another sigh*
I am currently Cheerful
I am listening to not much... typing and birds and my own heavy sighs