someone's gone...
05/07/2003 03:33 p.m.
I'm missing 3 comments so I'd assume someone's gone. Ah... I hate it when that happens. Makes me want to go through every comment and try to decipher which one's missing.

So Koye, Eric and I talked on the phone for a long time last night. It was... different. Different, yes. It showed me how different Koye and Eric have become. There wasn't such a large gap at Killian Hill. I guess it's just Eric's being away for a year. And then college. College has done odd things to us all. It put a spotlight on any tiny emotional instability Koye may have. It emphasized drinking, drug use and sex as the *big three* for Eric. What has college done to me? Bob Jones gave me some guilt... but I also learned a lot there. I'm glad to have gone there. Georgia Southern (which I'm extremely proud to go to... I don't care what you happen to think of it... when you attend, you can have a say, ok?) has brought about parts of my personality I haven't explored fully. It's allowed me to do things I wouldn't normally have been able to do. But I'm not ashamed of anything. I'm me. I've made decisions and done things and that's me. That's not Emily trying to break some rules and rebel. Not at all. Anyone who knows me knows I don't care about that. I don't care about "being rebellious" or "standing out." If you stand out, people SEE you. And you know I'm not hip to that. Anyway, point is... we're all changing. This summer maybe'll put a teeny hold on it.

Oh this summer... just cross some fingers, ok? I start driving school on June 2nd. ::cries::

Let's just hope at one point my parents'll be cool enough to let both Koye and Eric over at the same time. And Koye over at all. We're still in talks, you see.

THINGS ARE TOO COMPLICATED. I'm staying in Statesboro next summer. :)
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I am listening to birds chirping and myself typing