ugh
04/28/2003 04:28 p.m.
i hate that he can do this to me. i hate that i still love him. i hate that all it takes is the hint he likes someone else for me to be jealous. i hate that he hates me.

i can't ask for anything. i can't ask that he be all better right now. i can't ask that he keep his love for me. i can't expect him never to move on, never to find another girl.

i should be so content right now. i should be perfectly fine and confident in the decisions i've made. i should remember the plans i have. i shouldn't worry about him like this.

and i shouldn't have written this in a journal entry. is it possible to be too open? to say too much? is it wrong to allow him this much? to be so free with my feelings? to keep saying love?

i need to shut up and swallow this.
I am currently Bothered