ok, ok
04/24/2003 03:20 p.m.
So first I'd like to apologize to Koye for the lack of communication yesterday. That quite sucked. I shall be calling tonight and we'll have actual talks, for sure. FO SHO. I apologize. Again. Ok, so that wasn't the greatest - not talking to Koye. Really should have handled that better but I was desperate. Eric was sort of mad and that was more upsetting than I could have imagined it would be. We walked to Waffle House and had some late dinner and talked things out so it's ok... it was just scary for a second. We also had extensive conversation about body image and the difference in boys and so on. And his weirdness. He has some weirdness. And I was worried cause of something silly, honestly, but I think that's all ok now too.

And I talked to Tommy yesterday. We were serious for the first time since the break up. That other time we talked was hyperness on his part and pensiveness on mine. This was totally different - it was one of those calls-with-a-purpose I sometimes engage in. And it was basically calling a truce. It's odd because I know we're both still dealing with this but we're ok cause we've decided to be. You know, it's weird to be friends with an ex-boyfriend. I NEVER do that. Unless you count Arthur who never really left me alone at all. Until a few years ago... this is a different story. Let's get back on track. So yes, we talked and I didn't die (which was the worry) and we actually laughed together a little. It was nice... reminicent of Bob Jones. Maybe I'll actually be able to do this whole "friend" thing. Yeah... God's on the phone.

And we're not bitter but...
I am currently Better
I am listening to the lab monitor talking about "building a mystery"