update
04/05/2003 03:45 a.m.
today did horrible things to my body and mind. but i'm feeling better. tommy and i talked things out and i think everything's going to be ok. yes, i have a hard road ahead of me. actually this very night i'll be doing something i dread. i don't want to hurt eric - that was never the intention. but i think to set things straight, i might have to. we'll see how all this goes.

wish me luck, guys.

a big thanks once again to my lifelong support beam, koye; ashley, the roommate who lets me say stupid things and then says amazing things in response; my avatar who knew all along love was bad news, chris shin; david r. coy who continually lifts me up with his words; and simeon who understands what i'm going through. i love you... and thanks for putting up with me.

now is one of those... moment of truth thingies.
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