why
04/04/2003 04:47 p.m.
why the fuck do people love me so much? and would they say it more with some gin in the bloodstream? damn it, this is the most horrible feeling. what do i want? fuck, i don't even know. the email was beautiful but i still haven't gotten a letter. i'm about to go check again. thank God i'm not going to lose koye. i'm immeasurably glad we're back. i'm going to need him. thank you for the wonderous sweetness. you're the best. really.

stupid fucking love. chris, i hate to say it, but you were right. time to listen to "down with love" by bobby darin.
I am currently Jaded