I think it's required
03/05/2003 12:20 a.m.
(tons of journal entries a day... I would not be complete otherwise)

But sometimes you have moments you want to document. I guess this is one of those. I'm revelling in what I'm feeling cause it doesn't make any sense. Tommy didn't call last night; he hasn't emailed yet either. I didn't see Eric after mythology as is the custom and he hasn't called. I have homework for some class, I know. I've really done nothing today. I should be a ball of sadness and guilt.

But I'm not. Cause this is one of those moments where I remember something so beautiful nothing else matters. Eric has mentioned to me his immense jealousy of Simeon. And I was thinking today, if he has anyone to be jealous of, it's Simeon. And that's pretty much how it's going to be for anyone who wants a relationship with me. Because I look at him so... fancifully? optimistically? surreally? One of those maybe. Or all. And it's nothing I can really pinpoint or explain in great detail.

He loves me. He's my friend. He commented on some of my stuff. He posted a journal entry. He's around. He's moving about and being. Somehow that's enough to make me forget the problems I have... for right now.

This moment.

I just wanted to remember that I felt like this today.
I am currently Blessed
I am listening to "Concrete Sky" by Beth Orton