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02/18/2003 02:35 p.m.
I tried to post this last night but the site logged me out as I submitted it. Since it was in the 1 o'clock in the morning range and Ashley was already in bed, I decided to wait til today to repost.

Anyway, last night was full of talks. That kind of freaks me out, cause what if people get tired of talking? But it doesn't freak me out TOO much. :) Tommy and I had like... four serious talks in a row. Ouch. But it ended REALLY well and I'm feeling a LOT more comfortable with him and me and us and all that. The main talk was about (surprise, surprise) trust. And what I'm hoping at this point is to maintain this trust high I'm on right now. I said straight up "This isn't easy. Trust you means you could shoot me right now and I couldn't defend myself. This is me protecting myself." And he was perfect about it. He trusts me. I could shoot him right now and really hurt him but he knows from things I've said, things I do that I honestly care about him and wouldn't shoot him. That... I mean, really got to me cause I know I should be feeling the same. He's given me so many reasons to believe him. So I'm on an insane trust high right now. My brain keeps going "Oh! Look here, another reason you should trust him!" I'm loving it.

In the first journal entry, this paragraph was bigger than that one. They're going to be WAY reversed this morning. Koye and I had talks too, but they're having a less lasting effect. It was all about this Rachel girl. Ah, whatever. No hard feelings there... I'm over it. Just needed a good yell and got that out last night. I yelled at Koye for things as well and that's why I think I'm not still concerned about that whole conversation. I've said all I need to say.

So, generally a good morning for me. I'm going to go get some Chik-Fil-A and I might be back around noon. I'm a postin' fool!
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