Life...Or Something Like It
02/18/2003 05:28 a.m.

My life could be a soap opera, I swear sometimes, I just don't know where I am at. I mean granted, I am half with a guy who is starting to warm up to my friends. He even called to see if he can meet them soon. That makes me really happy, but then I have his brother telling me that he is still with his ex-girlfriend. I know the ex and I am so tempted to go to her work and have a little vhat with her, but I wouldn't do that. I mean he will blow me off for a week or so and then come back as if nothing happened. And of course while he is gone I am usually fuming and convincing myself that I am through with him, an then he calls me and I forget how bad I feel until the next time, because after six years, I still melt at the sound of his voice. I love him so much, and if we could be together, and stay together I would be so happy.

And what is this weather that we are having. My Lord, I am sitting in my house looking out the window and the snow is up over my front tires, I can barely see my car. And we still have 12 more good hours of solid snowing. And of course my man is out there plowing in this. He keeps me on the phone because he is bored out there. I hate having him out there, it really scares the hell out of me. I hope they call a State of Emergency because I can't possibly get out of my driveway and get to work in the morning.

And my friends have to have crises and miscarriages and raging fits of jealousy. My life is a spout of junk right about now. I am so tired, but half the time I can' sleep because I have no idea how tomorrow is going to turn out, most likely bad. But on the bright side I absolutely love my job. Well that is all I have for tonight. I am going to sleep soon.