nothing to say
01/27/2003 05:17 p.m.
But I'm saying it anyway. I have an English essay quiz at one. I'm not really prepared for it. Oh well. School is such a strange thing anyway. Thinking about college and going and finishing is one thing; actually doing it is completely different. Sitting in class is fine. Learning things keeps it in perspective. But sitting at a Chik-Fil-A talking about earning money and moving away and adult things... it really throws things off. I'm in such a weird middle stage. I want this to be over, to get a job, get married, have kids, start life. This doesn't feel like living. I don't know. Maybe I'm being whiny.

I went to mass yesterday. It was an experience. A very good one. Brian (with the coolest last name ever - Hutsebout) took me and Eric. I walked in and it felt right. It was this feeling in my whole body like I was really some place special. Like something completely sacred was about to take place and I was allowed to be present, even a little active in it. I think I'm going to call Brian today or tomorrow and see about going on a regular basis. Maybe I can get him to take me to the class things I'm fairly certain I'll have to attend. Seeing Ashley so involved in her church makes me miss regular attendance. I don't see it as "competition" or anything; she's just very motivating. In all ways, really, not just religiously. "Do you ever study?" :)

Sometimes.

Well, I need to look at my English at some point. Now would be a good time, I think. Yep.

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I am listening to someone's phone ringing