random stuff
01/20/2003 12:37 a.m.
I guess when you don't hear someone's voice for a while you forget what it sounds like next to your ear. It's nice when you can be reminded.

That's really all I have to say about that.

I wish I weren't so insecure. The people close to me really have to deal with a lot of crap from me. Stuff they shouldn't have to worry about. I'm trying. I am.

I like Jack Johnson. Praise Ashley for having his CD and playing it in my presence. I scooted myself to Best Buy and purchased it and I'm in LOVE with it. He's neat.

Homecoming was horrible, thanks for asking. :) Nah, it was supernice to see people. But it was me, Simeon, Karla, Jon and Mary Ruth sitting there and randomly turning to each other and saying "I don't want to be here. Why are we here?" Chris was there for a little while. Eventually Ashley and Jared showed up. I was walking around with Ash when Mr. Dawson gave the results for spirit week and, stupid emotional me, I started crying. It was just this terrible night of "I'll never be this excited about anything ever again." Depressing. All those kids cheering about essentially nothing. Once they graduate they'll never do that again. And it suddenly made perfect sense to me why people ride rollercoasters and go to football games and cheer their lungs out and do drugs and have promiscuous sex and get totally drunk and have bar fights and all of that. Everything made sense.

And it depressed me. I've been in a weird mood for the past couple of days. It hasn't translated well over the phone. Big apology to my honey. Yeah. I'm silly.

I suppose that's all I have to say. Except that John and I physically ran into each other at the game and we both pretended it didn't happen. Weird.

I want it to be March right now. Please?


I am currently Scattered
I am listening to "Flake" by Jack Johnson ... again