tomorrow
12/28/2002 12:14 a.m.
"Behind crystalline irises the loons can dive where the world bleeds white..." Isn't Tori Amos the best? What other person could write something like that? It's all about the Carbon. What a lovely song. It sums my life at this point. In a way. But it leaves an opening. What do you really want to happen now? That's the big question. And I have no idea. Yes, I should make a definitive choice in many areas, actually. But it's easier to put that off. I need to know what I'm going to do with my school, career, friendship and romantic relationships. I have pretty much none of that decided. Everything is up in the air right now. Which is kind of funny since Tommy will actually BE up in the air tomorrow. Yep, the waiting will soon be over. And I'm terrified. Really scared. But so happy. I just hope things go well. I know they will. (I think that was one of those mantra things that if you say a bunch of times might come true...? What is that...? Affirmations? Yeah, I think so.) But yes. Tommy. He's coming to see me. And I'm happy. That's all.

Decisions can wait. I'm happy. The end.

I am currently Anxious
I am listening to "Crazy" by Tori Amos