confusion
12/22/2002 02:20 a.m.
I hate those situations where your decisions prove who you are. When your faith is called into question and you have to figure out what you're going to do. I'm afraid of a situation like that presenting itself to me. Soon or not-so-soon. Either way, it's not going to be easy. I mean, yes, I want to do what I'm supposed to do. Christianity is important to me. The most important thing. God. He's number one. That is the way it should be. But you get into these moments where you wonder why something is wrong or right. Those moments are the ones when you end up making a wonderful choice or a huge mistake. Not always are they so obvious. But sometimes. And you know, I'm a person. I have impulses and feelings and things. Who's to draw the lines that have to be drawn? I'm a girl, so I'm basically the one who has to draw them. But what dictates where I draw it? Whose opinion should I listen to? Blegh. I'm just venting. I'll be done now. Promise.
I am currently Scattered
I am listening to "I Miss You" by Bjork