reallyextremelyyouwouldn'tevenbelievehowhappy
12/01/2002 04:31 a.m.
I... um... am still lacking in words. Probably not the best time to post a journal entry, you might think. I disagree. I just think it’s really necessary to document my happiness. Sadness is always documented heavily with me... happiness deserves its share, you know? So yes, happy. I’m fairly certain this night was one of my favorites so far in regards to Tommy. I was a bit worried when he hadn’t called in the evening and had actually started moping at one point. And then the ten o’clock hour rolled around. Yum. Yeah, I guess that’s the best way to sum it all up. Yum. There are a bunch of times when I SHOULD say things and I’m not able to (in this case because I’d been immobilized by images and feelings) so I suppose this is taking the opportunity to say something like “yum” when I should have. Yum. Yum yum yum. And permanent goosebumps, most definitely.

It feels wrong to switch subjects at this point... I was going to ramble about Tori Amos and how great this CD has been over this Thanksgiving break and maybe about how nuts my family is being... things like that. But now I just can’t see that happening. My brain is full of other things. Other really enjoyable things. Yeah.

I’m going back to school tomorrow morning so this’ll be my last journal entry til Christmas break. (Unless something earth shattering happens at like 2 in the morning.) And, honestly, this is the best way to leave it. Everything being great. I got to see Koye. That made me so happy. Just Friday morning sitting there all make-up-ified talking to him while he was still in bed and hitting him when he beat me at DOA and music and Utena and 2 AM pictures... it was really nice to do all that again. What would I do without that? And I got to go see Sim and Jon and everyone. And I got to hug Jared which is a really odd thing since we see each other nearly every day and I was like “Okay, hug me while we still can!” : ) That was all great. And the fact that Tommy and I are at a point where he’ll call me at home from Virginia... that’s a cool thing. Especially with conversations like the one we had tonight. Um, yeah. : ) So this journal entry is all about the joy. I posted a ridiculous number of poems which have been getting reads and comments and all kinds of fun. Please don’t hate me for my happiness... I don’t mean to brag... just to... um... well, yeah, brag. I’m happy. I’ll be back in a week and a half! Yay.

I am currently Stellar
I am listening to "Your Cloud" by Tori Amos