Frozen
11/27/2002 04:53 a.m.
Dealing with my life one day at a time. That is the only way in which I can survive until tomorrow. I am scared and vulnerable, but to you I may seem normal. I must be a great actress, because no one can see that I am breaking. My boyfriend can't see it, my friends cant' see it, my parents can't see it. I try to lie to myself....it never happened....it was a dream, you will move on. I am falling on the mercy of God now, because there is no where else for me to turn. I am physically and emotionally in pieces. All I want is to lie in my bed in my boyfriends arms and feel safe. Safety and trust is what I am striving for. Right now, I don't feel that I could ever be safe again. I just need a hug.
I am currently Gross
I am listening to I Gotta Get Through This - I don't know who it is by