boys and stuff
10/26/2002 10:35 p.m.
I'm back. I honestly have nothing new to say. But I find that's something I do. I keep coming back for more even when I have nothing more to get. Yep. I posted a poem. Do you want me to be honest? (well, KOYE doesn't - "if you love enough, you lie a lot") But I value honesty. Even if someone is horrible and tactless and yucky, honesty makes up for all of that. I think. I'd rather have someone who loves me say "You really need to rethink those neon yellow stretch pants" as opposed to "Ummmm, yeah, you look... nice?" You know? I just need honesty. So here I am, gonna be honest about the poem. I wrote it in reference to Tommy, but it's really about every boy I know. It seems. Boys do that all the time. They say things - dishonest things. And then you're all nuts going "Was he being sincere??" It's a mad crazy cycle. I have another poem to post. It's also about Tommy. It's along the same vein as the other one, but a bit more... I don't know... conversational, I guess. I expressed my anger towards him within a very short time period and then experienced this weird natural high. And then the poems came. Out of nowhere, really. I knew afterwards what that "natural high" was... denial. Yep. I said "Who cares if he and GrapeNuts get back together? Nothing'll change. All will be the same. Blahblahblah..." And I was just being silly and denial-icious. I'm not really angry with him anymore. Well, this is, of course, Saturday. He comes back from Virginia (and Dunkin Donuts) Sunday. Which means tomorrow could VERY well be a renewal of my hatred. I wouldn't doubt it, actually. Simeon is going to a "show" tonight :) ... he's lucky. He's also a sappy cute emo kid and HE KNOWS IT. :) And now every member of my family is calling me to the kitchen for this thing...? Dinner or something? Yeah, I'll go now.

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I am listening to RELATIVES making food and talking and stuff