I'm not the same
02/06/2002 10:10 p.m.
I knew that this would happen all along, I always said it's either I hurt him or he'll hurt me. But I just didn't know what to do...like a fool I ran after him, I changed for him, quit my stubborn ways and tied to be equal. But maybe we're just no good anymore. I knew that he'd be leaving me shortly. I saw it in his eyes, they were empty, he never looked at me the same and I tried to convince myself it was just bcuase of all the pain I put him through. Maybe he just wants to be with her....I could almost swear on it. But for now all I can seem to do is cry and reminice of all the times we shared, and then I can't breathe. He doesn't know what he wants anymore, after I lost everything for him. And if he changes his mind I can't do it again, I have nothing left to give to him but the emptiness behind my teary eyes. Like I've said so many times before, I'm lost and I don't know how to live without him. I can't want him anymore...
I am currently Jaded